We’re going with succinct today. Grieving is the most difficult emotion to sort out. Because once a person is gone from your life, you can’t resolve anything left unsaid. You are left with the memories and you feel like something is incomplete for a very long time.
I lost someone, once, in the traumatic way that lets grief eat away at you ever after. And it’s guilt and grief and relief and regret…all mixed into this massive ball of sad.
I remember the last time I saw him. I felt betrayed by him. Betrayal is a strong word, but it was the emotion at the time.
It took me years to work through those feelings. I don’t do intense feelings well. Now, I wish the last time I saw him I would have said, “I know you’ll be okay. I’m going to be okay. And I honestly wish nothing but the best for you.” But I didn’t. I looked at him briefly and then looked immediately away. He knew my face too well to not see.
I wish, that last time I saw him I would have given him the grace of saying something… anything, positive. But I didn’t. And then I never saw him again.
Going from seeing someone every day, talking to someone every day (all day), to them being completely gone from your life is an adjustment. Most everyone is grieving for someone or something that has left their life. Grief needs space.
My Advice:
Tread gently with the people you love. You never know when is the last time you may be able to see them.
Go hug someone. Or go tell someone you are sorry. Or go tell someone you forgive them.